For the past few days I have been in a cloud of frustration and confusion. I haven’t been turning to God and I haven’t believed in his plan for my life. I’m transferring to a Texas school this fall and it has been difficult picking a college that I want to go to. Today I woke up and my mind was racing with different thoughts and ideas that I was so overwhelmed. I turned to God apologizing to him for my unbelief and my doubt in his faithfulness. In the midst of my prayer when I was asking God for guidance he gently spoke to me and said “Remember the Promise.”
This stopped me in my tracks and immediately I felt convicted. I had lost sight of the promises that God had given me and I was consumed with what my circumstances looked like now. Truth be told, I already knew that God was calling me to go to Baylor University but I was to scared to go along with it. I couldn’t imagine how I would be able to afford Baylor which is $55,000 a year and more expensive than the school I was coming from. I was scared of putting myself in the same situation of leaving a school I couldn’t afford.But in the midst of those fears God was telling me to the remember the promises that he has for me. He was telling me once again to trust him.
Isaiah 61 is the very first promise God gave me. It is the promise that he has for me this year and for many years to come. It says “The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor. They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations. Strangers will shepherd your flocks; foreigners will work your fields and vineyards. And you will be called priests of the Lord, you will be named ministers of our God. You will feed on the wealth of nations, and in their riches you will boast. Instead of your shame you will receive a double portion, and instead of disgrace you will rejoice in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours.“For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them. Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the Lord has blessed.” I delight greatly in the Lord; my soul rejoices in my God. For he has clothed me with garments of salvation and arrayed me in a robe of his righteousness, as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the soil makes the sprout come up and a garden causes seeds to grow, so the Sovereign Lord will make righteousness and praise spring up before all nations.”
I don’t know how God is going to provide for Baylor but I know he will. I trust in you father. I remember the promises that you have for me. My eyes are on you lord my eyes on you.