For the past few months I have been seeking the Lord and asking him about my life. There are certain things that I know God is calling me too and certain promises that I am waiting to come to past. In the midst of seeking and pressing into God there has been a certain level of confusion and frustration. To be honest it feels like I’m stuck. I know that there is so much more to the life that I am living now. Sometimes I wonder if God hears me when I cry out to him. The process that God has me in has been long and tiring and to be honest I want the promises that he has for me to come to past now! Today all sorts of thoughts were running through my head. I started worrying about my circumstances for the millionth time and I started to feel bitter. Bitter towards God with a fleeting hope that things in my life would change. Then all of sudden God whispered to me in my spirit and said “You keep holding on to your control.”
It’s funny how we say “God I lay everything at your feet” “I surrender” but yet we constantly pick up our problems and burden ourselves. Even when I don’t see God’s plan or promises in my life I choose to have hope. I choose to believe that my God is alive and active in my life and that he cares about me and my family. I chose to relinquish control daily and put my trust in the Lord. God I pray that every spirit of doubt would be removed. I pray that you will renew my strength and my joy. I pray that you will give me a fresh hope and a fresh faith in you. I pray that my dependency will be on you and you alone and that I wouldn’t limit you or your power by my mindset. I remove the limits off of my mind and I proclaim that my perspective of you would be limitless!!! In Jesus name Amen!!
When I was typing out this post this verse kept on popping up in my head. Isaiah 46:9-13 “Remember the former things, those of long ago; I am God, and there is no other; I am God, and there is none like me. I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come. I say, ‘My purpose will stand, and I will do all that I please.’ From the east I summon a bird of prey; from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose.What I have said, that I will bring about; what I have planned, that I will do. Listen to me, you stubborn-hearted, you who are now far from my righteousness.I am bringing my righteousness near,
it is not far away; and my salvation will not be delayed. I will grant salvation to Zion, my splendor to Israel.”